Hard Pressure

Ashley Elizabeth Dawn

Hey, baby, can you bleed like me?

Doodle takes Dad's scissors to her skin
and when she does, relief comes setting in.
While she hides her scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
she sings:
Hey baby, can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby, can you bleed like me?

Therapy is Speedie's brand new drug
Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun
It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun
and she cries:
Hey baby, can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby, can you bleed like me?

Every day I fight a war against the mirror,
I can't stand the person starin' back at me,
so I'm a hazard to myself.

I'm my own worst enemy!
It's bad when you annoy yourself...

I want to be somebody else...






Would it be wrong? Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight?

My clothes are soaked,
I'm crying.
There's no doubt,
I know I'm dying.

I did this to myself,
and that's the part
I can't believe!

I'm going down and no one can
save me!










Sing for me,
I can't erase the stupid things I say!
You're better than me...
You wouldn't like me.
Keep moving on until forever ends.
Don't try to fight me.
The beauty queen has lost her crown again.

Take a breath and softly say goodbye.

As I Grow Older...

I see things in a different light.
The world is no longer all about me and my needs,
its about me and my role to play in the web.
I can see that every action and reaction I make affects the world around me.
I learn that nearly all problems can be overcome,
but not all.
You should be kind to people so they'll be kind to you,
but they can't walk on you.
You must learn to communicate with strangers,
but keep a wary eye.
And you cannot learn what true happiness is
without experiencing true despair.
We learn that not all things are as easy as some make them seem,
and that we too will make some things seem easy.
We will be hurt,
and we will hurt people.
We will hurt people intentionally and by mistake.
Sometimes we won't even know what we've done to someone unless they tell us up front.
In essence, humans are ignorant jerks,
that are constantly fighting with each other to gain,
when we should be fighting the true trials of the world.
Everything changes as we grow.
I have learned to love without mercy, without restraint, without boundaries.
I have learned that to heal someone is not to take away their problem, but to help them learn to deal with it.
I have learned not only to stand up for those I care for, but also for those I dislike.
I have also learned that I will not always put all my knowledge to good use, and will sometimes become absorbed in myself for my own wisdom.
I know that I have faults, and I'm not afraid to admit them.
Some of these faults are becoming irritated when others refuse to accept and admit their faults, and I end up looking like an ass, or that I cannot let some things go as I would like to, and claim to.
But in the end,
I must keep moving,
because a river cannot dwell, for the ocean awaits.

Random

and NO cheating!! The answers are at the bottom.


1. Which is your favourite color out of: red , black , blue , green , or yellow ?
black

2. Your first initial?
A

3. Your month of birth?
February

4. Which color do you like more, black or white?
Black

5. Name of a person of the same sex as yours.
Brittany

6. Your favourite number?
2

7. Do you like Flying or Driving more?
Flying

8. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?
lake

9. Write down a wish (a realistic one).
I wish... I wish Ash could come see me to see Twilight this November.


When you're done, scroll down. (Don't cheat!)


























Answers

1. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - You are conservative and aggressive. .... not really....
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.
Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love.
Yellow - You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

2. If your initial is:
A-K You have a lot of love and friendships in your life. YES!!!
L-R You try to enjoy your life to the maximum & your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

3. If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected. awwwwe
April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will not last long but the memories will last forever.
July-Sep: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.
Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.

4. If you chose:
Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at the time but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change. hmmmmm....
White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This person is your best friend.
lol yea!

6. This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.
hmmmm I can see that

7. If you chose:
Flying: You like adventure. yes ma'am
Driving: You are a laid back person.

8.. If you chose:
Lake: You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved. Oui!
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people.

9. This wish will come true only if you send this to five people in one hour. Send it to ten people, and it will come true before your next birthday
*sends*

Don't tear down what's left of me

I´m dying to catch my breath
Oh why don´t I ever learn?
I´ve lost all my trust,
though I´ve surely tried to turn it around

Can you still see the heart of me?
All my agony fades away
when you hold me in your embrace

Don´t tear me down for all I need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something I can believe
Don´t tear me down
You´ve opened the door now, don´t let it close

I´m here on the edge again
I wish I could let it go
I know that I´m only one step away
from turning it around

Can you still see the heart of me?
All my agony fades away
when you hold me in your embrace

Don´t tear me down for all I need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something I can believe

Don´t tear it down, what´s left of me
Make my heart a better place

I tried many times but nothing was real
Make it fade away, don´t break me down
I want to believe that this is for real
Save me from my fear
Don´t tear me down

Don´t tear me down for all I need
Make my heart a better place
Don´t tear me down for all I need
Make my heart a better place

Give me something I can believe
Don´t tear it down, what´s left of me
Make my heart a better place
Make my heart a better place

~All I Need ** Within Temptation~

Wolf inside

The animal inside
she screams to be free.
She was not made to be caged
in this form.
Beautiful and fierce,
nurturing and lethal,
she knows all about pain.
Great, torturous, searing pain,
that in itself is
beautiful.
Leaving seeds all around,
one must simply plant one
inside their heart,
to know that beauty.
That torture.
That murderous feeling,
that leads one to question
their mortality.

Her

Every day, she walks past me and my mind wanders back to when she and I were something special. Now I can see in her eyes, she hates me, she doesnt' care about me, and this tiwsts a knife already stabbed into my throbbing heart. After all we've been through, you'd think I could at least get a sad glance, or - dare I go so far as to say - a smile, no, not from her... Its my own fault and I should have been over her long ago, but I still have to see that look every day.

Anesthetic

She's waiting to inject
the anesthesia
deep into her heart
to numb all of her senses.
...anesthetic...


So the words on the lips
rarely speak words of heart,
but we keep on nodding,
we just keep on nodding.
And all the world's pain
can be wrapped in the dark,
but we keep on nodding,
we just keep on nodding.


We will watch
her as one
when her plans
come undone.


She's waiting to inject
the anesthesia
deep into her heart
to numb all of her senses.
...anesthetic...


Sometimes the secrets' open wide
presented for the world to see,
but we keep on walking,
we just keep on walking.
So the louder the cry
the less we hear the plea,
but we keep on walking,
we just keep on walking.


We will watch
her as one
when her plans
come undone.


She's waiting to inject
the anesthesia
deep into her heart
to numb all of her senses.
...anesthetic...


Stop sitting back and nodding.
Stop ignoring and talking.
Stop turning eyes and walking.
Stop twisting words and prodding.


Just inject the anesthetic,
just inject the anesthetic,
just inject the anesthetic,


and finish what you started.




Anesthetic by me